I love it when it rains.

Its raining, and it is Saturday. I love the rain, it always reminds me of you. (:
If it weren't for the fact I don't have a matching raincoat, I'd go outside to play in the rain. I'm already sick, whats the worst that could happen? Besides that, its lightning... and I really don't feel like getting shocked. Plus, I'm watching Penelope. I love this movie, its so good. (:
I have been texting Christy today. I wish she would just leave Chris be and move on. I hate seeing him so distraught by this thing. She hasn't really made up her mind about what she wants, but she needs to soon because he is suffering from this. I hate that. This whole situation has made mine seem so much more obvious. I can learn from their situation and better myself because I can't force her to make changes - only myself.
Anyway, I have to work today... and I don't know how that is going to work because it is storming outside and I have a 40+ drive to get Aud to and from my dads.
Anyway, I think I'm going to leave now to either 1 - work on my history paper, 2 - finish penelope, 3 - facebook, or 4 - all of the above.
love, me.

Happy 30 post!

c: Hi bloggers.

Today has been lovely, except for me almost getting murdered by some loon on slappey today.

I got a new phone! Well, its the same as my old one, just new. The old one cracked in the flip-joint thingy so it was sorta floppy and limp and so depressing.

yaaay new phone! Super exciting. (: Anyway, I got an 88 on my research paper. (PRAISE GOD!) I was really nervous about it, but I'm glad I pulled through. Ms. Gassel said I was really improving and each of my papers gets better and better. yay! I'm glad. I was really worried about it. Thank you Christy for your help and advice! I couldn't have done it without you, literally.

Anyways, tonight I am off, which is a first. I am going to work on my history paper and clean my room. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Justin and Erin want to hang out tonight. I owe them a lot, they're great friends. I hope I get to spend more time with them. (:

ps.

Thank You God for not letting that crazy lady annihilate me!

love, me.

my life is worth more than boiled peanuts!

So yesterday was a mess.
Starting with good things first, I sort of worked things out with Ryan. Well, I at least feel like I kind of did. I really miss his and my friendship, so I told him that. He and I, boyfriend/girlfriend-wise, we are over. But as friends, we don't have to be. I don't want it to be. So I told him how I felt, now I just have to see if he wants to be friends or not. He said he did, but like everyone says, actions speak louder than words. If nothing happens, at least I tried. This situation is in God's hands now.
The gas station next door was robbed while I was working. Hope didn't do anything last night, so when we got an ambush of people in, she didn't help. She kept running to the bathroom or went to sit down, dispite my constant "Hope do this, Hope I need for you to do that". I transfered an upset customer to ms terri, who in turn calls me to cuss me out saying I shouldn't speak the way I do to customers. Even when I was joking.
We didn't walk out of there until 10:20 that night.
It sucked, and now my cd drive isn't working so I can't burn a thanks-for-making-me-a-cd-so-i-made-you-one cd for Josh. poo.
anyhow, I overslept for my first class, (math) so now i can just go to psych (yay!) then after that I'll go tan... wait for katie to get out of school, go get her, then we will see what tonight holds! (: Maybe lots of happy things.. guess we will find out. (: Like always, I've got my fingers crossed and my eyes wide open!
love, me.

Staring at trees, not the road.

Dear God,
I couldn't help but notice how absolutely beautiful today has been. You are constantly leaving me in awe at everything You make, do, show me, etc.
I'll love You forever and always, but You already knew that. (:
love, me.

of joy that kills...?

I'm free!
This weekend has been exhilarating. I feel completely free from all those old feelings.
I couldn't have done it with You, God. Also my friends. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I'm not guaranteed having no pain-free moments, but for the most part its all gone. I feel like I can finally move on with my life.
I'm so excited. Eeeeek! c:
I'm not free when it comes to school work though. D: boo!
I have to work on a research paper and my midterm, which are both due tomorrow.
Mr. Daniel was really upset with our class today because no one but like two people read the chapter. (the two people, me and tina, only read parts. not the whole chapter) so i figured i am going to start preparing and studying my notes. i want my next test grade to be the highest one for the class. c:
anyways, i just had to brag to blogger that i feel so alive and so free. I'm so excited.
love, me.

Hello Columbus

Hello bloggers.
It is currently 9:54 AM and I am awake. D: Nooooo! I'm in Columbus now, away from Albany and babies. Its nice, really. I needed the break. Christy is still asleep (effing wake up!) And her cat, Jasmine, woke me up by digging and nuzzling into my hair. It was the strangest feeling.
Last night was awfully fun. I met up with Josh at the mall and we roamed around waiting for Christy to get there. Then we ate some lovely Chinese food (that destroyed my stomach this morning. D: ) and then we went back to the apartment to watch Repo and Zack and Miri Make a Porno. Both were really good, slightly funny. We also pigged out. (mmm corndogs with cheese spray, por favor?) Then Christy and I went back to her parents and crashed. Today we are going for lunch, hanging out around Columbus, and God knows what else. Tonight we're supposed to go back over to the apartment and watch a scary movie. eek! I hate scary movies, but Christy offered to protect me from the scenes. Hopefully that will work.
Anyways, I'm off to draw on my tablet or something. c: byee!
love, me.

I've been watching The Office all day

I really, really, really need to find myself a Jim Halpert. Seriously.
love, me.

SNOW DAY!!!!!!

Not really. c:
We had snow flurries, which was super exciting.
I woke Katie and Stevi up and told them it was snowing, and they were mad because they couldn't even see the snow.
Then I rescued Mr. Bigs from our roof.
So far, its been a good day. I hope it snows tonight, so I can have a snowball fight at work. c:
snowball = .1% snow + 99.9% hibachi sauce


MMMMM.
love, me.