Hello fellow bloggers. C:
Today has been rather uneventful, just like this weekend.
Erin and I went on a sushi date, it was fun.
Sunday I attempted to study at Hibachi but I failed. So instead I got to talk to Ramsey, Justin and Erin. It was fun.
I'm about to have to go into work, bahhh.
The weather outside is amazing, I love the coldness. Everytime I step outside it catches me offguard, but I love it.
I've sort of fallen off track when it comes to talking to God, which I'm not proud of.
I hope to pick back on that subject, but these past couple days have been so stressful to me, especially my pride.
All around me couples seemed to be popping up outta nowhere, and couples seem to be ending out of nowhere as well. I'm very happy for my friends who are experiencing the getting together part, but as for my friends who are breaking up I feel for them but it was obvious things weren't working.
In a way, I'm kind of glad to not be a part of that crazy drama. Even when the guy (or girl) seems absolutely perfect, they can come outta nowhere and blow your heart out of your chest. So instead of being the victim, I am helping out my friends who have had this done to them. Or were the ones who broke it off.
Its different, I can see what its like on the other end. I guess all this is a learning experience for me to grow from.
Speaking of learning, I think my brain has sort of... died. I have no motivation to do my school work. Or at least it seems that way until 30 minutes before things are due. Maybe I should take the summer off? I'm not sure.
I need a vacation. My brain is officially fried.
Anyways, I'm off to get ready for work.
love, me.
Oh, PS: Thanks God for my good day. C: I haven't told You this today, but I think You're awesome.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Hello tablet!
So today sucked really bad.
I'm not going to post to the world what happened because thats my own business and I don't want to make people think differently.
however something wonderful happened too.
My tablet came in! :D
Thus, I made this:
Yaaaayyy fun! Me and this tablet are going to become very good friends.
Anyways, I'm going to go to bed now. I have a loooong day ahead of me.
Oh, and I have fluid in my knee too from when I fell on one of Audrey's toys after making fun of Katie's cripped ipod. It hurts and it's swollen. D:
Oh well, its all in God's hands.
love, me.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I can't think of a witty title today.
Today in psychology we talked about conditioned learning and reflex. Somehow we got on the subject of him and his midlife crisis. He said he bought a yellow sports car and it hydroplaned and ever since then he freaks out and has difficulty maintaining good blood pressure level when he drives in the rain. He also said the reason he picked that car was because in the commercial it said that the first red light he stops at, a gorgeous redhead, blue-eyed beauty would jump in. And he goes to tell us that it did work! And we were like, 'huh? who are you talking about?" and he goes, "well my wife, duh!" and we all had our laughs. He then got this certain look on his face... He smiled, and said "Yep, my wife. She's wonderful. None of you guys know what being in love really feels like, its something that grows in time. It takes a while, but when you get there its something you couldn't imagine living without. I'd hate to see my life without her. 43 years now, and its still perfect."
It got me thinking, what, with everyone saying how much in love with each other they are, are we ever really in love with them? What if we are just infatuated and feel that we are in love with being in love? What if he was right?
And if he is right, then what feelings have we all felt before? What is that feeling you get when that one person walks into the room.. and you have to remember to keep breathing? When the second your eyes lock you feel yourself getting weak in the knees? When just listening to his heartbeat is all you really want to do for the rest of forever? When you can see yourself growing old with that person? When you find yourself finishing each other's sentences? When you picked out beach houses you'd share with both your teacher salleries during the summertime? When you can't even stand to listen to half of your ipod because the memory of that person seems so unreal?
What is that feeling? is it love? or is it the very beginning of the actual feeling?
After he said this, I was sort of sad. Why couldn't I have that same feeling too? Then I realized, 'helloooooo!? you are NINTEEN. not sixty. you have the rest of your life to feel that way!' So I pulled myself out of the sappy-sad-girl puddle and felt confident. I know that one day I will find that coreshaking, consuming, can't live without eachother love that I've only read about, watched movies about, and heard about in my psychology class.
Some might not think something like that would happen. But I have faith. I know I will one day. Until then, sure, it'll be hard. It's always hard. (twss) Like yesterday when I was driving down Devon dr. and I saw an older couple walking, holding hands and laughing at eachother's jokes. It made me sad, sure, I wished I had someone I could hold hands with and laugh at too. But you know what? I'm okay. I'll be fine. One day I'll find that certain boy that will do all those things with me and then some.
Until then, I'm going to keep working on the relationship with myself. Work on my friendships, getting closer to God, my school work, my job, Audrey... Eventually my core-shaking love will come along. And when he does I can say to him, "Well jeez, mister, what took you so long!?"
love, me.
It got me thinking, what, with everyone saying how much in love with each other they are, are we ever really in love with them? What if we are just infatuated and feel that we are in love with being in love? What if he was right?
And if he is right, then what feelings have we all felt before? What is that feeling you get when that one person walks into the room.. and you have to remember to keep breathing? When the second your eyes lock you feel yourself getting weak in the knees? When just listening to his heartbeat is all you really want to do for the rest of forever? When you can see yourself growing old with that person? When you find yourself finishing each other's sentences? When you picked out beach houses you'd share with both your teacher salleries during the summertime? When you can't even stand to listen to half of your ipod because the memory of that person seems so unreal?
What is that feeling? is it love? or is it the very beginning of the actual feeling?
After he said this, I was sort of sad. Why couldn't I have that same feeling too? Then I realized, 'helloooooo!? you are NINTEEN. not sixty. you have the rest of your life to feel that way!' So I pulled myself out of the sappy-sad-girl puddle and felt confident. I know that one day I will find that coreshaking, consuming, can't live without eachother love that I've only read about, watched movies about, and heard about in my psychology class.
Some might not think something like that would happen. But I have faith. I know I will one day. Until then, sure, it'll be hard. It's always hard. (twss) Like yesterday when I was driving down Devon dr. and I saw an older couple walking, holding hands and laughing at eachother's jokes. It made me sad, sure, I wished I had someone I could hold hands with and laugh at too. But you know what? I'm okay. I'll be fine. One day I'll find that certain boy that will do all those things with me and then some.
Until then, I'm going to keep working on the relationship with myself. Work on my friendships, getting closer to God, my school work, my job, Audrey... Eventually my core-shaking love will come along. And when he does I can say to him, "Well jeez, mister, what took you so long!?"
love, me.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
This entry was meant for Feb. 12th C:
Hello, Helloooo!
Long time no post, right? C:
I’ve been awfully busy lately with school, work, and life in general. I’ve also been doing a lot of growing and appreciating myself more. I’m so thankful for everything, for everyone I know. Right now I’m popping Jones’ soda carbonated candies in my mouth, typing on Evee (who’s come down with some type of disease) at the Hibachi in Albany while Ms Terri, Jamie and Brett talk smack about the crazies that have worked here. Austin is in his office plotting new things for his new restaurant. I feel like a helpless mutual friend who is sitting in the same room as my two close friends who just broke up with each other after 4 years of seemingly happiness. Austin sat in one corner, and Ms Terri sat behind the counter and they both didn’t say a word, but I waved to both of them because they both have been my boss. Its slightly silly seeing this from an outsider’s perspective. I don’t know if Austin’s business will go so great, seeing how every BBQ restaurant to ever open in Albany closed… but I’m hoping for the best for him. Naturally I’ll come visit him, and wish him the best of luck. But I’m on team Hibachi.
Haha, I wrote that on one of my papers for a class… I’m a horrible student. (:
I’ve been reading this book called Why Men Love Bitches by Sherry Argov that is terribly true. It takes on the same points The authors of Its called a Breakup because its Broken and He’s Just Not That Into You. My good friend Erin recommended them for a good laugh and some readjustments I could work on for myself. i.e., focus on the relationship with myself before even considering one with a *gasp* boy! And also, hellooooo!? I’m a SUPERFOX! Another thing, stop worrying over whether a boy likes me in that way or not. Who cares? I don’t! This book, however, keeps contradicting itself. It says to stand your ground and don’t let a man control you, then it says to give him the power and you’ll gain leverage. Huh? What? So I can’t let a man control me or seem too needy… but somehow I’m supposed to give a guy power and make him feel important?
That sounds like bullshit. Why should I lower myself and pretend I’m some helpless, defenseless damsel in distress? And why do that to please a man? I think it is absurd. I’ll do what I want, take care of myself, and if a guy wants to tag along then so be it! He’ll have fun, that’s guaranteed… but I am not going to go out of my way to make him feel like he has the power.
On a lighter note, Erin, Katie and I went to go see the movie He’s Just Not That Into You. It was really good, but that movie kind of contradicted itself too. It kept saying, “Hey! Crazy lady! Here are the obvious clues that a guy just isn’t THAT into you… So stop making up excuses!” And it gave you rules, then it said “Oh… But there ARE exceptions.” … Wait, what? And in the end, everyone was happy, because let’s face it… Everyone always has a “happily ever after” ending. *note my sarcasm*
It also told us what every guy was like, which doesn’t make sense. There is a handful of guys out there that I’m sure aren’t that bad, but in fact, are really great! So who are they to say they ALL act like that? I don’t know. I was terribly confused.
But I really did enjoy that movie. It was cute.
Anyways, not much going on in my life right now besides me working constantly, and when I’m not at work I’m at school. I think I’m going to visit Christy the beginning of March which I’m totally excited about. I miss her.
Anyways, I’m off. I still have an hour to kill before I have to be at the dentist and so I’m going to start reading… or studying. (:
Love, me
Long time no post, right? C:
I’ve been awfully busy lately with school, work, and life in general. I’ve also been doing a lot of growing and appreciating myself more. I’m so thankful for everything, for everyone I know. Right now I’m popping Jones’ soda carbonated candies in my mouth, typing on Evee (who’s come down with some type of disease) at the Hibachi in Albany while Ms Terri, Jamie and Brett talk smack about the crazies that have worked here. Austin is in his office plotting new things for his new restaurant. I feel like a helpless mutual friend who is sitting in the same room as my two close friends who just broke up with each other after 4 years of seemingly happiness. Austin sat in one corner, and Ms Terri sat behind the counter and they both didn’t say a word, but I waved to both of them because they both have been my boss. Its slightly silly seeing this from an outsider’s perspective. I don’t know if Austin’s business will go so great, seeing how every BBQ restaurant to ever open in Albany closed… but I’m hoping for the best for him. Naturally I’ll come visit him, and wish him the best of luck. But I’m on team Hibachi.
Haha, I wrote that on one of my papers for a class… I’m a horrible student. (:
I’ve been reading this book called Why Men Love Bitches by Sherry Argov that is terribly true. It takes on the same points The authors of Its called a Breakup because its Broken and He’s Just Not That Into You. My good friend Erin recommended them for a good laugh and some readjustments I could work on for myself. i.e., focus on the relationship with myself before even considering one with a *gasp* boy! And also, hellooooo!? I’m a SUPERFOX! Another thing, stop worrying over whether a boy likes me in that way or not. Who cares? I don’t! This book, however, keeps contradicting itself. It says to stand your ground and don’t let a man control you, then it says to give him the power and you’ll gain leverage. Huh? What? So I can’t let a man control me or seem too needy… but somehow I’m supposed to give a guy power and make him feel important?
That sounds like bullshit. Why should I lower myself and pretend I’m some helpless, defenseless damsel in distress? And why do that to please a man? I think it is absurd. I’ll do what I want, take care of myself, and if a guy wants to tag along then so be it! He’ll have fun, that’s guaranteed… but I am not going to go out of my way to make him feel like he has the power.
On a lighter note, Erin, Katie and I went to go see the movie He’s Just Not That Into You. It was really good, but that movie kind of contradicted itself too. It kept saying, “Hey! Crazy lady! Here are the obvious clues that a guy just isn’t THAT into you… So stop making up excuses!” And it gave you rules, then it said “Oh… But there ARE exceptions.” … Wait, what? And in the end, everyone was happy, because let’s face it… Everyone always has a “happily ever after” ending. *note my sarcasm*
It also told us what every guy was like, which doesn’t make sense. There is a handful of guys out there that I’m sure aren’t that bad, but in fact, are really great! So who are they to say they ALL act like that? I don’t know. I was terribly confused.
But I really did enjoy that movie. It was cute.
Anyways, not much going on in my life right now besides me working constantly, and when I’m not at work I’m at school. I think I’m going to visit Christy the beginning of March which I’m totally excited about. I miss her.
Anyways, I’m off. I still have an hour to kill before I have to be at the dentist and so I’m going to start reading… or studying. (:
Love, me
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
6 months
You're the direction I follow
To get home
When I feel like I can't go on
You tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing
Without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
Cuz you have that affect on me
You do
Everything you say
Every time we kiss I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss
As much as I hate missing you
Months going strong now
And no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me
I love you harder so
Everything you say every time we kiss I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss
As much as I hate missing you
So please give me your hands
So please give me a lesson on how to steal a heart
Steal a heart as fast as you stole mine
As you stole mine
Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss I can't think straight
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss
As much as I hate missing you
So please give me your hands
So please just take my hand
I love that song. I do believe it is wonderful for the occasion. :O
I'm off to work. Sorry lurkers for the long time, no post. I've been awfully busy. I promise to update soon.
love, me.
To get home
When I feel like I can't go on
You tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing
Without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
Cuz you have that affect on me
You do
Everything you say
Every time we kiss I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss
As much as I hate missing you
Months going strong now
And no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me
I love you harder so
Everything you say every time we kiss I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss
As much as I hate missing you
So please give me your hands
So please give me a lesson on how to steal a heart
Steal a heart as fast as you stole mine
As you stole mine
Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss I can't think straight
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss
As much as I hate missing you
So please give me your hands
So please just take my hand
I love that song. I do believe it is wonderful for the occasion. :O
I'm off to work. Sorry lurkers for the long time, no post. I've been awfully busy. I promise to update soon.
love, me.
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